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21 April 2006
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life is really an emotional rollercoaster. one minute, i'm feeling so down and the next, i'm just okay. and certainly, your existence in my life right now, at this moment, just screws me up more. i'm more confused than i've ever been. one second, i doubt your actions, your words. our eye contact. and the next second, i'm just drawn in deep. those eyes of yours. it's so tough. you treat me like i'm the only girl worthy of your attention. you can't deny that some of your actions don't really reflect about our mutual relationship. you confuse me boy. you do. not that i don't appreciate your concern, but.. its just drawing me deeper in lah. i'm just so afraid i can't get out of it. i'm hearing stories about you. about you and another girl. about you and how you haven't gotten over her, who once was the only girl in your life. i've heard them all. but somehow, you never fail to just unknowingly prove those stories wrong. your actions, your words and your everything. it just adds up. its practically like, me and you can never be together. its impossible. i doubt you feel the same way as i do. the problem is, my dear mister. you never seem to understand that however way you're treating me right now, isnt the normal way friends treat one another. i feel the faint flutter in my heart when i see you. whenever i look at you, i'm hoping i'm the person you're looking at. whenever i'm not near, i'm hoping you're thinking abt me. the minute you come near, the heart beats extra beats. i can smile just thinking of how you always look at me. the pain's gone when i recall how we've been so close. boy, i'm going out of my mind. thinking what's becoming of us. i really don't know how you feel, and i'm not goona ask. it's might just destroy our friendship. but dear boy, don't mislead me. don't lead me on.TIARA. A joke of a romantic says: you know what? i can tbe bothered. i'm just too tired. memories of what i had haunts me everywhere i go, every single day. if only he knew what was written deep within me. but too bad guys these days just look through a girl not in a girl. guys take girls for how they look like. not for what they are. one glance and they say the girl is the perfect one. they dont even give chances to those who really care. to those who have literally given their all for them. sigh. i'm really confused. is it just play on your part, or.. do you mean what you do? do you actually care? or.. you're doing it cause it seems like you have to do it.? why do you even care? don't even bother. your constant care, and concerrn, plus the way you worry about me. you just make me fall deeper. and harder. the way you want to make things up. the way my hand fit into yours. the way you and i just get so comfortable with one another. its scary. its very scary. i'm petrified at the thought, that at one point in time, even guodong's constant reminders will not work. there's just so many little little things you do, that warm my heart. but until you do smth major, i'm still considered your good friend. and maybe, that's the way it should stay. anyway, anyday, friendship last longer than relationship. we're like 2 lines. we're constantly crossing one another. but we don't move along with one another. we go our seperate ways, then meet up again, and we'll seperate again. honestly tell me, is there connection between us? is there more than what meets the eye? then again, thinking back of the stories i've heard.. it's tough. tougher liking you than loving you. cos if i love you, i wouldnt care abt anything i hear. but when i like you, i take all things into consideration. sigh. |
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nor liyana mohd khalis.i'm always in love with pretty boys. like as if i don't learn from experience, i always give in to sweet words. and i never learn from the past. i'm vulnerable to hurt, but i'd like to believe i'm stronger than i seem. jauh di dasar hatiku, aku tahu aku masih kasihimu dan menyintaimu. namun kau sudah berpunya, kau sudah bercinta. disini kita berakhir, tergantung segala cerita dan kisah lama. wishlist
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